November 29, 2009

grandad


(umm...i dont know why people follow this thing. it kinda like my personal little diary. my place to vent,reflect,and sometimes confuse myself.)
people leave this world so fast. like its utterly crazy how one day your here and then the next day your not. how one second im physically able to say hello to you and the next day...not so much. it still hasn't hit me yet. the thought of you not being here...or seeing me accomplish what i said i would to you,but to some extent you don't have to be.its like you already know, are already proud of me, and already believe in me ..even if you did not get a chance to see it happen.i get happy when i think of how happy you get when you see me...how happy yougot when you saw me. im writing in past tense now...
.and im not sure its okay,but its life.

b.o.b.-no mans land


its crazy, looking back on his earlier works i would have never thought he would develop into the artist he is now. like for real,the same guy who brought you "haterz everywhere" is now known for strumming his guitar and playing the piano in the park. i personally love it. its like the more of himself he puts out there the more i dig him. plus he puts on for his city!
ohh
baha at homeboy getting a little air time @ 2:21.hes out there at lil 5 trying to spit poems for money every single day.maybe now somebody will stop and support.

November 22, 2009

.

i told myself i wanted to be a marine biologist
i wanted to save the manatees
and swim with these giant creatures of the ocean
now theirs less than 3000
but i said i would
when i grow up..
i wanted to be on stage
like michael jackson
i even learned how to do the moonwalk
on wood or carpet
with either socks or shoes on
i swore i would marry him
when i grew up.
i wanted to love
like ariel on the little mermaid
i didn't talk much
but wanted him to understand me
now i find it hard to understand myself
i said he would love me
when i grew up...

& though im unsure
im not indecisive
& im starting to believe...ill never grow up.

November 19, 2009

celeasia j.

sooo i was scrolling through my many photo albums of book de la face and came across this image, a picture of my friend cleo aka celeasia j aka ce-lo.i figured if i was going to post a picture of her then it might as well be on her birthday!though i love this picture, im not sure it really captures the essence of her. it doesn't show how her eyes light up when she laughs, or her terrific personality, but the mere fact that i stopped what i was doing to get out my camera and capture this other wise insignificant moment in time shows something else.inspiration.with her i share my dreams, and i cant tell you how many times i have become excited about life just by talking with her.its crazy,sometimes just knowing someone who candidly believes in you makes you believe in yourself.she's that person and im lucky to call her friend.
happy b dayyyy.

& quote

"there are years that ask questions and years that answer."-zora neale hurston

November 16, 2009

November 13, 2009

definishion

nir·va·na (nîr-vän, nr-)
n.
1. often Nirvana
a. Buddhism The ineffable ultimate in which one has attained disinterested wisdom and compassion.
b. Hinduism Emancipation from ignorance and the extinction of all attachment.
2. An ideal condition of rest, harmony, stability, or joy.

& the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true..

November 11, 2009

her.


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"i dream therefore i become"

so about a year ago the imagination foundation sponsored an art show entitled i dream therefore i become. the show featured oil paintings, sculptures,and even skate decks, all uniquely rad. though each piece was different they all portrayed similar ideas of imagination being critical to all learning and understanding.this painting,fabric of the universe,particularly intrigued me became it did not take the typical "look at the stars" approach when trying to express the act of dreaming big.to me it said something a little deeper.don't just look at the stars, make your own.

November 10, 2009

get umm!


about two weeks i was told i should check out this kung fu flick,Zatoichi the Blind Swordsman. I have still yet to see it but cannot stop watching the closing sequence where all members of the cast dance!
makes my day, i swearrr

November 6, 2009

the act of love

caring for someone.
wanting the best for them.
wandering if their safe.
these things are not hard, and they are indeed a choice.
a simple act
of choosing..to love.
so where does this concept of "love at first sight" come from.
this disillusion of being "in love."
truthfully everyone has people who they are more attracted to.at first this may be because of some shallow reason like the way they look,or the way they carry themselves, to the type of vibe they give off, where you can simple tell you have something in common.
when people get to know a person they are already attracted to they are more prone to love them.not because some magical reason but because they were already interesting in the other. why not choose to care for someone that was already in your thoughts just from their initial presence.
from this problems often develop.once you make up your mind to love someone it is hard, and virtually impossible to resign.basing the decision to love on quick encounters often leads to loving those who take too much effort to be loved.this may sound a tad bit cold, but look at it this way.how are you going to do everything in your power to care about someone, worry about them, and want to the best for them if they do not care, worry, or want the best for themselves?who you love is not out of your control...
truth is,you can love anybody
you don't even have to meet a person to love them
but most people are not selfless enough to care fully about another human's life and well being without getting something in return.
this exchange may be something as simple as their presence, or comfort, but it could also be,a label,physical satisfaction,or even delusion created by unrealistic standards of what love should be.

a solution:
love yourself,
love everybody else,but be aware that everybody is not capable of loving themselves. and know that only they can fix this problem.don't be so blind to hurt yourself while trying to care about somebody else.
don't be so blind to hurt yourself while loving someone else

your gonna go far kid.


back in the summer my brother entered this hp you on you contest,this contest where you had to make a video telling the world about yourself without showing your face.the grand prize was 25,000 dollars along with a hp artist edition notebook computer.he didn't win the 25k, but did end up being a semi finalist and still got a laptop.im extremely proud of him,and excited for whatever he decides to put his mind to in the future.i truly believe he possesses the tools to be very influential,even at the age of 15(and eleven months).
yup.

November 2, 2009

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don't worry i understand
i see why we talk about others
poke fun,and ridicule
it gets kinda boring when we look past the surface
we're all to similar.
and its no fun
when your laughing at yourself.

of montreal-an eluardian instance

where brooklyn at?








sooo i had the pleasure of traveling with my amiga to her home town of brooklyn, new york this weekend & enjoyed myself.its crazy though.wherever you go there are some things that just seem to stay the same.there are still entertaining people, and ipods still get stolen at party's.& i still get comfort out of walking the streets at 3 in the morning...even in brooklyn.